MULTIPLY♥
Saturday, August 18, 2007
My blog's currently
UNDER CONSTRUCTION. I still don't have time to make a new layout so I used a free template instead. :P
I know, no one's reading this blog anyway. HAHAHA. I'm using my blog in
Multiply more often. :) But if I'm not stubborn to do one layout one of these days, I'll most probably use this blog. :) Especially for thoughts that I think should be more private.
♥ Vindicated @ 18.8.07
Finally.♥
Sunday, April 01, 2007
I am officially an old girl of Assumption.
It still haven't sank in as much as I'm expecting it to. Besides thinking about the fact that I won't enter the same gate as I've been for the past 13 years next schoolyear, I won't wear the same plaid skirt, see the same faces, the environment.
Everything will be new. It's as if I'm back to base 1. I guess it is sinking in. I'm just in denial.
It hurts to let go of something that has been a part of me for more than a decade. Letting go of the experiences may it be good or bad and the friendships made within my stay.
The memory of my very first day in school still flashes back vividly on my mind. It is making me more nostalgic over the thought of leaving that school behind. I have to move on but never let go of that certain past that made an incredible mark in me. That very past that, I should and will never let go of.
I did leave a lot behind.
I will miss my batchmates who I’ll probably going to see not as often as before or even never.
I will miss my teachers. Yes teachers.
I will miss my friends. One of the reasons why I love going to school.
I will miss Fourtwo – my classmates for the past three years.
I will miss my band, Taken and how we make music.
I will miss my barkada.
I will miss Komu and how every day turns out to be perfect just hearing voices blend and looking forward for Fridays.
I will miss Ms. Ettie and how she taught me lessons in different aspects especially about music and life.
I will miss ‘ze Breakfast club’ and how we share our daily baons.
I will miss the masses held every month and daily morning talks.
I will miss singing the Assumption School Song.
I will miss getting up and down the HS building.
I will miss the Auditorium where I can proudly say I learned to be confident.
I will miss the Ecosongfest.
I will miss my school, Assumption.
BITTERSWEET.
I’m in high spirits because finally I’ve graduated yet heartbreaking to think of the idea that I can not bring back these memories that have been made back. It is now part of my past. A past that is good to think and reminisce about.
I’m currently in the state of Nostalgia.
I’m going to miss you, guys. I love you!
♥ Vindicated @ 1.4.07
Kalsada Nobenta♥
Sunday, February 04, 2007
KALSADA NOBENTA:
On the 10th of February, Friday. There'll be performances from the Seniors and surprise guests. It'll feature the bands Kjwan, Urbandub and Parokya Ni Edgar. Tickets cost P200*. AA open field. Gates open at 5pm til 12 MN :)
*Buy tickets from me :))
♥ Vindicated @ 4.2.07
Must Get Out♥
Sunday, January 07, 2007
I'm 70% sure and decided to study in the US. Atleast for now since I haven't taken the SAT. I need a new environment, new experiences. I know it'll be hard adjusting but if my mind's on that path then I'll never regret making that decision. I need to pass that test! My future lies there.
If ever I don't (which I hope won't happen), I'm going to stay here and study in UE. I know it'll still be fun if I stay. I still get to hang out and see my friends. The only adjustments I have to make are dealing with different new faces and the environment in college.
I'm still thinking of the PROS and CONS of studying abroad. But, as what I've said, I am that sure of flying to a different country. I'm not good on socializing, I admit but I think I can handle life there.
Hmm. Anyway, I'm still functioning despite having a broken heart and hanging with promises that were left unsaid, undone. At the moment, I want to let these distressing feelings out. I don't know any solutions except of venting to my friends. But, it still doesn't make me contented. There's something missing. I don't know why my tears can't fall, there's like this barrier that stops them from falling. Maybe that's why I'm not feeling ok. I can't let all these negativity out of me just by crying. I tried to be optmistic but that's when I started going through this. Such irony. On the brighter side of things, I think with all these happening, I'm getting closer to Him. I'm letting Him do whatever He wants. I'm becoming an optimistic person. Thanks to all these encumbrances.
LET GO. LET GOD.
♥ Vindicated @ 7.1.07
There are days when I wish I have a permanent bestfriend. Someone to whom I can share everything (in details). The person who'll stick forever without making any promises. Someone who will accept me for who I am.
I need a bestfriend at the moment. I can't keep these to myself or I'll breakdown. Venting to my friends is one solution but it seems like I haven't expressed what I'm really feeling completely.
I'm not in the mood to post. This doesn't even make me OK as compared to before when I just have to sign in here, type and let it all out. Too private.
CONGRATULATIONS TO ALL WHO PASSED ADMU. :)
♥ Vindicated @ 7.1.07
You are amazing.♥
Friday, December 29, 2006
Yesterday was EXTRAordinary. Wohoo. Salamat Belle and Isay. I had supah fun. We should do that often kahit na ang palpak nung ibang ginawa (like watching THAT MOVIE). Haha. Na-karma nga kami, ang pangit nung movie. So, can you figure out the film we watched? I needed that sort of gettaway with my friends. Badly. Instead of just venting to them over the phone or through text messages. I needed their company. A really big thank you, gays. :) Anyhow, I still need to collect 15 stickers to get that Starbucks planner. Yes I know it's kind of late cause I just got mine last Tuesday, but what the hell, I still got less than a month. Kaya yun. Kahit na hindi ako ganun ka-coffee junkie. We went to Starbucks with Lala and her friends, 11 people that is. We were only 5 so, 11:5. We weren't able to talk to them. We were in a hurry and so were they.
We dropped off Isay in Filinvest. Tapos, muntik lang naman kaming hindi makalabas ng subdivision kasi ayaw ibigay ng shitty guards yung license nung driver kasi nawala DAW niya yung gate pass pero, wala naman daw talagang binigay according to Kuya who was sitting infront and our driver. I got really pissed off cause my mom was calling me already and the guards were just - SHITTY. Sobrang daming nangyari, eventually nakuha rin yung license niya. Thanks to Mr. Lagunzad. I got to share stories with Belle manhid, too. She's just amazingly trustworthy. Goodluck on that stomach ache, manhid. :)
I talked to my friend from 10 to 3. He poured out emotions because of his current heartbreak. I just helped him and he helped me, too. I just hope he feels better than the past few days. He was really feeling down. He didn't tell a thing, I just noticed. I think he just needed someone to listen him (as much as I needed someone to listen to me). HEARTBREAK. Shit.
♥
Before a new chapter is begun, the old one has to be finished:
tell yourself that what has passed will never come back.
Remember that there was a time when you could live without that person.
Nothing is irreplaceable.
A habit is not a need.
-Paulo Coelho
I guess erasing his number (Yes, I didn't memorize his number) will make this feel better. I won't be tempted to text him. I'll just wait for HIM to text ME. I can survive this day.
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STUPID ME.
I mentioned on my December 24 entry that I'll post entries here since I THINK no one bothers to read this unlike my Tabulas and multiply journal. HOWEVER, my bad. I advertised it through my YM status. Actually, I really placed the url on my status cause I thought that few people will click it. Darn. Yes yes, stupid me. Anyway, I don't care. I mean I'm going public. HAHA. So, if ever you guys read this. Why not try to comment? I'll be HAPPIER. Knowing you guys read my blog makes me happy already. Kilig me. HAHAHA! By the way, just to make things clear, I'm not against you reading this. Haha! It just snapped out of me, I AM STUPID. Hahah.
To those who bothered read this and asked me what's happening, I'm really sorry for not sharing these with you. I promise to make it up to you gays. :) Be happy.
RANDOM:
This just scares me. Most of my friends' status in YM talks about death and this friend who wants to die by poisining himself. DEATH? What the -, people. Don't you notice how colorful life is? Ofcourse it's not always rainbow bright, but hell, you're not human if you don't experience the darkness in your existence. I admit I am the MOST PESSIMISTIC person in the universe, or make that country. But I TRY to think positive, of what this life may bring. Now I will live on the saying, LET GO. LET GOD. He's the only ONE who knows what's best for us. Live thy life to the fullest, we just borrowed it from Him. LET THE IDEA OF ENDING IT GET OUT OF YOUR MIND. It's lame People of GOD. LAAMMMEEE.
This day was another ride on the emotional rollercoaster. Gah. Shit. Yeah, I survived this day. (Refer to the text below)
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♥ Vindicated @ 29.12.06
We're so far away♥
Thursday, December 28, 2006
*The title doesn't have anything to do with my post. It's pure randomness.
I just got back yesterday from the North (of the Philippines). It was cold. That's why I feel sick today but this doesn't stop me from going out. I'm going to watch a movie with Isay. We need it for Filipino. Yesss, that Film Festival shiz.
I had an OKAY Christmas. It was still occupied with problems but resolved anyway. Baguio was fun though the Marquez members were totally incomplete. I got to bond with my fiends, ay brothers pala. Hahaha! I got know my little brother's dirtiest secret. : Hahah. Well, we needed that. We fight often. I missed everybody :) Especially ISAY and - Yeah. HAHAH. Eww, cheesy baby. (ISAY, SPECIAL MENTION YOU, DUYBA) I didn't get to capture much pictures cause I wasn't in the mood to. No vain buddies, Hi Sam!.
HELLO WORLD.
I'm inlove - with life.
I think it gives me something that makes me a better person. Ending my life didn't even cross my mind, never. It's lame. I mean, I got the chance to live and I am fortunate cause others didn't even reach the age I am now.
I'm inlove -.
Enough said.
I MISS MY FRIENDS but I love the break. I don't want to go back to school. I haven't accomplished a project or a homework. Shit, tamad :Sana forever na ko ganito pero ayokong maging bum.
I LOVE YOU. I LOVE YOU GAYS :)
Hahaha! Two separate, I love yous ;)
♥ Vindicated @ 28.12.06
Merry Christmas♥
Sunday, December 24, 2006
A bittersweet Christmas for me.
Things happen. I don't know if I'm going to be happy or sad. Different reasons and roots of this so called bittersweet feeling. Today was one hell of a rollercoaster ride of emotions. I was happy then looped to sadness. Moodswings? Maybe. But anyway, I think it's better to seize this Christmas though it's my second without my grandpa.
I'm off to Baguio tomorrow. My first without the whole Marquez. It kind of suck cause I've been used to spending Christmas with the whole family since I was a kid. I'm surely going to miss them. HAHA. I'll be missing some fun, so are they. Heheh. They said it's cold in Baguio. Nako, sana. I need some cold air. HAHAHA.
I missed this blog. I usually write entries in my multiply site or tabulas. So, I guess it'll be better if I post here the events I think are more private. No one bothers to read this anyway.
I got to pack my things and not sleep na lang. I'll wait until the clock strikes 12. ;)
MERRY CHRISTMAS, LOVIES ;)
♥ Vindicated @ 24.12.06
Abbie. Abbiebells. Bella. Isabelle. Seventeen. Broke. Still functioning. An aspiring photographer. Guitarist of her band, Taken. Wants to study abroad. Will become a dentist. A Komu member since first year. God-fearing. Not a snob. A music enthusiast. An Incubus, TBS and Mae fan. Does sing.