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Saturday, July 09, 2005

Ever since gradeschool, I'm ('cause I still am.) amazed on how this singing group in AA croon. Their blending was perfect and their voices were like heavenly. I really did look up to them. My cousin was part of that choir and told me when I was in gradeschool that I should join that club. Well, anyway, I’ll post something about what was
the outcome of the astonishment for that group of people.

I've been going to this classroom that's full of instruments. Different kinds of them. Modern to ethnic. I've been seeing the same faces but some vanishes each year. I've been seeing the same teacher who patiently teaches us the right melody and note until we blend and make a good harmony.

Yes, the Music Room. Komusikasyon and Ms. Ettie.

Auditioning for this club really did scare me. I wasn't that student who sings in front of the class or even to her seatmate. I was too shy to. Nobody even knows that I sing.

I was the 149th student who auditioned on the first day. I was supposedly going to back out but Pat, Jeanne and Yuby insisted that I still audition. They did too. We were the last students who sang infront of the old members who were older than us. So it was really scary. They were all serious. Not even smiling.

I sang my piece. Then tadaa.. Hit the wrong note and even swallowed my saliva that led me to stop my singing then still continued. I went to Ms. Ettie and did the piano thing in where I should follow the tone.

Abbie: "Loo"
Ms. Ettie: (plays a note on the piano)
Abbie: "Loo"
Ms. Ettie: (plays a note on the piano)
Abbie: "Loo"
Ms. Ettie: (plays a note on the piano)
Abbie: "Loo"
Ms. Ettie: Nice voice.

Nice voice?! What the hell? Nice voice? I screwed up. I almost ran out of the room because of embarrassment. But still, I really found it as a compliment. I got nervous and hopeless.

My hands were still shaking and I still felt my heart beating. I even saw my neck tie go, UP and DOWN, UP and DOWN. I regretted singing infront of them. Dignity. I was thinking that they'll laugh if they see me.

It was after mass when the results came out. Long recess. Jeanne and Pat told me that it was out already. Again, I got nervous that I told them to look it themselves and see if my name was there. After several minutes of waiting, Jeanne and Pat came and their faces were like, disappointed and said: "Shit Abbie, Kami lang nila Yuby pumasa." I didn't show them that I got depressed because I was the only one who didn't pass. I even smiled and said, "Ok lang yun no!" But then, they said: "JOKE LANGG!! Lahat tayo pumasa!". I jumped for joy and people inside the classroom and outside were all telling me Congratulations. I was on cloud nine and got excited to go home and tell my parents about it. Something to be proud about because out of 100+ who auditioned. I got into the 20 people who passed. Speaking of luck.

Komu is my second family. They are my sisters even Ms. Ettie. We are all bonded. But every year, a group of people leaves. People who I've been close to. Individuals who made different impacts in my life. I really feel grateful to have known them. They were the ones who were there to see me grow into this kind of person you're seeing right now. I developed self esteem and confidence. It’s like coming out of a shell who hindered me from doing what I can and what I wanted.

TO THE NEW MEMBERS OF KOMU..

WELCOME TO THE KOMU FAMILY. :D
HAVE FUN!
We're going for the 3rd streak.

THE SUSPECT

Abbie. Abbiebells. Bella. Isabelle. Seventeen. Broke. Still functioning. An aspiring photographer. Guitarist of her band, Taken. Wants to study abroad. Will become a dentist. A Komu member since first year. God-fearing. Not a snob. A music enthusiast. An Incubus, TBS and Mae fan. Does sing. Does dance. Currently learning to play the violin.

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