I thought everything about the band will be okay with Dad. I thought he'll support me. But I think all of these are just my "thoughts". God. I can't believe he'll tell me that. It breaks me.
Vien asked me if I could play the bass for them. They're joining this battle of the bands and will start practicing this week. I was so pleased to be asked cause I think that's a compliment. Well, I'm not good at it. I play guitars and was switched to bass because of a band dilemma. I still do not believe that I am good but I know I could do it. I really wanted to join them so I said, YES, but still not quite sure cause I'll tell dad all about it. Even my friend told me to join, it was an oppurtunity. But I guess that oppurtunity will stay as an oppurtunity that I've never even got hold of.
Dad didn't allow me to make it short. But it's not the main reason why I'm so pissed and disappointed at the very moment. His words did make me feel this way. I asked if I could join them since Vien asked me to but I got an immediate "NO" from him. I asked why and a reason not to join them. All he said was, "You're not yet good. Mapapahiya ka lang. Bass pa hahawakan mo. 'Wag ka ng sumali dun". Oh hell, I walked out. I don't care what he'll tell me and his up coming sermon later about disrespecting. I am so used and tired of it. Well, now I feel useless. Maybe I was just pretending and dreaming that I am capable to play these intruments. My friends compliment has gone to waste. My accomplishment in life isn't an accomplishment at all. My knowledge on playing the guitar and the bass doesn't have an effect anymore. At this point, I know I've broken a dream. I am not good and a failure.
But whatever it takes, my love for music will never cease.
♥ Vindicated @ 29.4.06
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Abbie. Abbiebells. Bella. Isabelle. Seventeen. Broke. Still functioning. An aspiring photographer. Guitarist of her band, Taken. Wants to study abroad. Will become a dentist. A Komu member since first year. God-fearing. Not a snob. A music enthusiast. An Incubus, TBS and Mae fan. Does sing. Does dance. Currently learning to play the violin.
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